Mirror, Mirror

Mirror by Collin Brummund

It starts with the unexpected loss of something dear

The warmth that comforted and cradled just disappears

And in its place, there's nothing, just an endless empty hole

The light that shown the way is gone and darkness takes control

Bitterness and anger are quick to fill the void

The path to isolation is littered with the dreams that lay destroyed

The cold seems to grow in my soul, it's consuming me

Confused, am I losing myself in a storm?

Growing jaded

Being pushed, being pulled, I'm unraveling

Can't find myself when I'm constantly forced to conform

Enemies surround me, but the worst appear as friends

Liars and pretenders, only seek to reach their ends

Everything is breaking right before my eyes

Looking in the mirror, I see someone that I don't recognize

The joy

That my heart used to know

Is eluding me

Removed

And the one thing I feel is alone

Smile's faded

And I'm spinning and sinking

I'm weakening

Frozen in solitude

Loneliness chills to the bone

Memories escaping

As my heart begins to drain

Scars that cover wounds

Can't hide the self-inflicted pain

Everything my mind wants

In conflict with my heart

Fighting back surrender

But everyday I'm falling more apart

Mirror, what's this thing I see?

Who is staring back at me?

This stranger to my heart that's filled my life

Mirror help me, who am I?

Mirror, tell me something

Tell me who's the loneliest of all?

Mirror, tell me something

Tell me who's the loneliest of all?

Fear of what's inside of me

Tell me can a heart be turned to stone?

Mirror, mirror, what's behind you?

Save me from the things I see

I can keep it from the world

Why won't you let me hide from me?

Mirror, mirror, tell me something

Who's the loneliest of all?

I'm the loneliest of all

Who am I to complain?

My life's been spared so much pain

Born with all that I need

My comforts all guaranteed

So what's the problem

What's keeping me

From moving forward

It's hard to see

I should be free now

I should be fine

But the life I fought for

Still isn't mine

Some believe in fairy stories

And the ghosts that they can't see

I know that I could do so much

If I could just believe in me

Mirror mirror

Tell me something

Can I stop my fall?

Years of scorn will leave you cold

'Forget your dreams do what you're told'

When disapproval's all you're shown

The safest place becomes alone

And isolation's

The price you pay

And every friendship

Is pushed away

But bit by bit now

A step each day

I'm slowly starting

To find my way

Some believe in fairy stories

And the ghosts that they can't see

I know that I could do so much

If I could just believe in me

Mirror mirror

I'll tell you something

I think I might change it all

Mirror, can you hear me?

Do I reach you?

Are you even listening?

Can I get through?

There’s a part of me that’s desperate for changes

Tired of being treated like a pawn

But there’s a part of me that stares back from inside the mirror

Part of me that’s scared I might be wrong

That I can’t be strong…

I’ve been afraid, never standing on my own

I let you be the keeper of my pride

Believed you when you told me I was nothing on my own

Listen when I say, I swear it here today

I will not surrender, this life is mine!

Amazing how you conquered me, chained me in servility and made me see

The world the way you told me to

But I was young and didn’t have a way to know the truth

Born to live your legacy

Existing just to fill your needs, a casualty

Of this so-called family that you have turned into a travesty

But I don’t intend to suffer any longer

Here’s where your dominion falls apart

I’m shattering the mirror that kept me split in pieces, that stood between my mind and heart

This is where I’ll start

I’m not your pet, not another thing you own

I was not born guilty of your crimes

Your riches and your influence can’t hold me anymore

I won’t be possessed

Burdened by your royal test

I will not surrender

This life is mine

Shame that it took so long to rescue me

From the guilt you used to tie me to your family tree

I guess your training failed, you’re not in charge I’m free

Your patriarchal prison won’t hold me

Now this conversation’s finally over

Mirror mirror, now we’re done

I’ve pulled myself together now, my mind and heart are one

Finally one

I’m not your pet, not another thing you own

I was not born guilty of your crimes

Your riches and your influence can’t hold me anymore

I won’t be possessed

Burdened by your royal test

I will not surrender

This life is mine